Monday, September 28, 2009

Time for change again.

This is the story of three girls who loved, three girls who lived, three girls who all needed each other at the same time and didn’t even know it.

In Spring of 2008 one of these girls was living in California and two were living in Washington. The two in Washington needed a change but didn’t know what or how to make it happen, so when the first girl got a job near Los Angeles the other two decided they would move down and live with her. They didn’t have jobs, they didn’t have friends and they barely had any money, but they left Washington and all they knew behind in hopes of making something of themselves. And make something of themselves they did. 

They lived life to fullest, they laughed a lot, they saw new things, they did new things, they loved, they lost, they made mistakes, but most of all they had tons of fun. This was the year they would grow up from college girls into women. This was the year they would learn about the harshness of life and the tenderness of friends who love you. This was the year they would remember for the rest of their lives.

This is my story as you probably have guessed. I moved to LA with my two best friends because I needed a change. I was stuck at home in Seattle and didn’t know how to get un-stuck! I knew there was something more but didn’t know what or how to find it. Well I found it. I found life again when I moved here. I broke out of my shell and have really learned who I am. I have had hard lessons I’ve had to go through that broke my heart but I’ve had amazing friends and times that have healed those wounds. I learned how much I can take and how strong of a person I can be when I need. I’ve learned to listen to myself and not second-guess my judgment. I’ve learned to be independent but when to ask for help when I need it. I’ve learned what it means to be a woman. But most of all I’ve learned how to live for me.

Well the past year came and went, June had been a year since I’d moved down here and suddenly there was a change in me. I still loved living here, but I started to feel that it’s just not the right place for me anymore. I pushed the feelings aside and told myself I was just homesick for Seattle. The summer came and went, and I traveled home for a visit and the feelings came back. The day I was flying back to LA I couldn’t stop crying, I didn’t want to leave Seattle again, I wanted to stay. I told myself I’d live down here another year, then I’ll move back up. But that didn’t seem right either, I can’t stay here another whole year, I want to be back up in the Northwest now. So I decided, after much prayer and thought, that in November after Thanksgiving I’m going to move back up to Seattle.

I have no idea why, no idea what I’ll do up there, but I just know I need to go back. California was the right place for the past year, it was where I needed to be to grow, and now Seattle is the right place once again. I’ll miss LA, I’ll miss crazy Hollywood nights, and lying on the beach, I’ll miss being able to take off last minute to spend the night in Vegas. 

Mostly I’ll miss living with my two best friends. They’re moving away from LA too, but they’re going home to Idaho for awhile before returning to Seattle. I’m not quite sure what I’ll do without them. We’ve been through so much this past year together, we’ve grown together this past year and we’ve just had a freaking blast! Before we moved down here I told my mom this next year is going to be “The Year of Fun!” And it totally was! We had so much fun living here and doing all that we could it’s disgusting. We’ve stayed up till 3 in Hollywood dancing the night away, we’ve hiked through the mountains here, we’ve gone to the beach, we’ve seen tons of concerts, we’ve met famous people, we did what we wanted when we wanted because it didn’t matter to anyone but ourselves.

Our story doesn’t end here though. It’s just beginning of a new chapter to our book. A chapter we have no idea what holds for us, a chapter which will probably have ups and downs as any good story has. I know for sure the chapter will have more lessons for us whether they be hard or not, I know we’ll grow through our experiences just as we’ve grown in this past chapter. I thank God everyday for my time here, it was my lifeline just as I was about to drown in the nothingness. I thank God everyday for my two best friends who brought me back to life after a really horrible year at  home. This has been the best year of my life, and while I’m sad to be leaving it behind I know that the future will be just as exciting and full of adventure as the past has been.

Everything Adventurous.

(See you soon Seattle)

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