I wonder sometimes when somewhere will truly feel like home again. Oh places I live feel like a home, and are special to me. But no where has the true home feeling like it used it. No where feels like I can collect tons of stuff and leave it there. I'm like a nomad, I travel light and keep it easy to pack up for when the next time to move comes. I miss having a true home. I hope soon I will have one again, it'd be nice to be able to truly unpack for the first time in six years. It'd be nice to be able to paint a wall the color I want that wall, instead of tan. It'd be nice to actually have a place to put everything and not to be living out of plastic bins cheap furniture. But who knows when that will ever happen. And yes I call my parents house home, but in truth that was never my true home. When they moved from our old house thats when my "home" stopped being "home." The new house was for the two of them and when my brother and I needed somewhere to be of course it was for us, but really it's my parents house, not the entire family's. And my home in California while it is home for now and I love when I come back from visiting somewhere to feel so happy to be home, it still isn't that same feeling. Does anywhere ever have that feeling "home" that the house you grew up in did? Maybe after you're married and have kids it does. Maybe I'll find out one day. For now I'll just be a nomad, never quite knowing where I'll go next and happy to be where I am for now.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I feel just like lost
I just feel lost lately. I'm not even sure why. I'm in school which was my main goal to achieve in my life since 2005, I have a job thats in the area I want to be working in, I have great friends who I live with. But yet I just feel like lost in life.
Posted by Jenny at 2:28 PM 2 comments
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
night
wow really good at this whole blog thing huh? oh well I only missed one day so far, not too bad. I dunno I just feel like I don't have much to talk about. Well that's not true I do, I'm just not ready to write it all out, I don't even know how to yet. Someday I will. Someday I'll get it all out. Probably I'm the only one who understands this post, but whatever, that's really what these are for aren't they. It's just the new version of a diary, so really you don't have to understand it, cuz these are my thoughts and my words, so I'm the only one who matters in this little world. ok I'm tired. time for bed. goodnight.
Posted by Jenny at 11:16 PM 0 comments
Monday, August 3, 2009
"Opportunity" Pete Murray
And so it goes another lonely day
Your savin time but your miles away
Your fly was drownin in some bitter tea
For seeing lost opportunity
Find your mirror go and look inside
And see the talent you always hide
Don't go kidd yourself well not today
Satisfaction's not to far away
Hold on now your exits hereIt's waiting just for you
Don't pause too long
It's fading now
It's ending all too soon you'll see
Soon you'll see
Your coffee's warm but your milk is sour
Life is short but your here to flower
Dream yourself along another day
Never miss opportunity
Don't be scared of what you cannot see
Your only fear is possibility
Never wonder what the hell went wrong
Your second chance may never come along
Hold on now your exits here
It's waiting just for you
Don't pause too longIt's fading now
It's ending all too soon you'll see
Soon you'll see
Hold on now your exits here
It's waiting just for you
Don't pause too long
It's fading now
It's ending all too soon you'll see
Posted by Jenny at 8:56 AM 0 comments
Sunday, August 2, 2009
oh man...
almost forgot to write today! Well today wasn't much of anything. Ran to the mall with Heather and Ashlee. Did grocery shopping. Read and watched TV. Got free dinner from the twin's mom. not too bad. I have to work tomorrow and I'm so not excited. I really need a new job, one thats close to home so I'm not spending 30 bucks a week just for two days of work and for a job I detest. sigh. I'll start looking again this month, see what I can find. Well anyway that's all really. this was more a post to start getting me into the habit of writing everyday. Off to bed to read for a bit then sleep since I have to get up at 5 freaking AM! (another reason I need a new job)
Posted by Jenny at 9:42 PM 0 comments
Saturday, August 1, 2009
I'm bored.
Life is beginning to get stuck in a rut already. I hate my job and I'm doing school and that's it. bleh. I mean don't get me wrong I'm super happy to be in grad school finally and to be moving forward that way, but I feel like I just don't do anything anymore. Probably because classes are all online so I like never leave the freaking house. I need something fun in life besides just school and my few days of work which lets face it right now aren't very fun. Maybe next semester classes will be better and I'll actually start enjoying school, I spose that could make a difference huh?
Posted by Jenny at 9:11 PM 0 comments